I am a true believer in fate. In the hope that there is a greater power out there, leading us in the right direction. I believe in soul mates and the small fact that everything happens for a reason. I believe in ‘i’ll meet you at the end’ and ‘or only one way that it was always meant to be.‘
I’ll never, ever lose that. I think that’s my favourite thing about myself.
We’re all stories, in the end. And this is just mine.
Things that I am grateful for today:
1. These two precious people, for making me smile real wide while I am cooped up in bed with a cold.
2. My new canvas’s, which are hanging on my wall and looking pretty darn amazing.
3. My puppy, who is currently sleeping next to me and keeping me company.
It’s the small things.
I am feeling particularly sad today. No reason, really. I woke up feeling off, and drained and missing someone more than I have in a week. It’s funny how something like that can throw your whole day off. I woke up sad, I woke up with a sore throat, and then I spent the day sorting out our stuff, our life, and boxing it all away.
I’m feeling broken today.
I am a fixer. I want to fix everything now, and instantaniously. I’ve always been like this. I think the greatest struggle for me at the moment is knowing that I can’t fix this, not right away, anyway. There is a certain hopelessness there that is breaking my heart.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I will make sure of it.